FYI, Blogging doesn't really come naturally to me so it might get a bit awkward at times. From time to time, I have really interesting (at least I think so) thoughts, ideas and theories and I kinda want to share them with anyone who is willing to read them. Yup. (Not desperate at all ;))
Also to clarify, by no means do I want to force my thoughts on to people and I am learning rather quickly that only shallow minds think that forcing anything onto anyone is morally sound. I have been through my fair share of experiences where my rights as a human were taken away and I, through the help of a few strong individuals, was able to let go of that negative energy. The reason that I bring this up as a disclaimer is because we are all mature human beings and not everyone has to agree with me. Not that I am really looking for any approvals to begin with. However, I do ask that if you don't agree with me on future posts please kindly let me know in the comments below and please steer clear of all negativity on this site.
As a little girl and as a young woman I have met some very influential characters in my life. These individuals have taught me how to cope with anxiety and how to re-evaluate my priorities. Others have wiped away tears while providing a spiritual shelter for my rather weak soul at the time. I would like to share with you what those people have taught me; how I have been saved and bettered by their love and moral support. It is really astonishing to see what happens when you have people who are willing to guide you when you are a total mess.
I am here to share my experiences with you all, some positive and some not so positive. I have seen miracles unexpectedly occurring in front of my eyes. Dua's (prayers) being accepted 7 years later bringing the love of my life into my life (finally lol! I tied that knot quick ;)). I have seen the power of love and respect. I have been fortunate to see the healing capabilities of a mothers love. I have seen the what true friendship is capable of **shout out to the friends that have been there no matter what.** However not everything that teaches you a lesson in life is a 'walk in the park' or most euphoric experience. With that said, sadly, I have also seen the darkness that floods one's mind when they can't find one good reason to live. Not one good reason. (Yeah, that was a very sad time.) The faces of loved ones flashing left and right when you're still not sure how to handle yourself. Sadly, at that time, no matter who's face you see it doesn't seem to have an effect on your desperation. I have lived through a time when I didn't know who I was. Unfortunately for me, I was either not allowed to ask questions or when I asked them they were ignored.
WOW, that was very exciting LOL. On a much lighter note, thank you all so much for your time and I am really looking forward to writing more about what a journey my 23 years alive as Neelum has been. Of course, that won't be the only thing that I will be posting on my blog.
PS: I have always been known for my personality and my energy(hopefully in good light lol) but now the true test of faith is stripping my soul of all ignorance and seeing how true to my self can I stay. I am learning how to love my self again. It's definitely a process that takes time and energy.
